Before coming to my home and reminding me of my covenants--ask me how are you? Show me you missed me. If you didn't why are you here? For numbers? Then shame on you for i am not a number to my God. Perhaps instead of trying to ge me back ask me where i have been. I may or may not be honest wih you about that. Lets say i decide i am going to be 100% honest in my response.
Sister Christensen, we would like to invite you back to your meetings.
I would love to be there I cant tell you how much i miss that fellowship the spiritual growth knowledge and understanding
Sister christensen we would like to remind you of the baptismal covenants you made..
Trust me I have never forgotten.
What is i then that keeps you from your meetings?
I have a panic disorder. I can't breathe or think clearly. I suffe from PTSD from all of the abuse i went through as a
Child. And from
The sexual assault i went through at the age of 13. Due to the abuse from my highly religious parents, the shame of ever talking about a sexual assault that occurred or how my "god fearing wonderful amazing parents could be one way at church and a completely different way at home"
--there comes a time sister Christensen where you have to forgive and go forward based on your own testimony.
I do. If i relied on my family life youd never have heard of me. All of my testimony is my own despite the teachings of my
patents. I learned to cope with my abusive
Parents and life e experiences.
I have instead by the grace of God been given ptsd, anxiety disorder and DID to handle my trials. He loves me. He takes what i have to offer each day. Its not your best but it is mine. He accepts it whatever my best is. Ask first don't think that just because i a not at meetings that my testimony or conversion are in question. Ask instead what do you need from us? The sacrament coming to me what a blessing. Why for so long was i told no?
Now I've been "inactive" for so long i cab bring my dog an no one cares which is good because he is a service animal legal and binding. They cant throw him out.
I wasn't healthy enough even with his help to come before. I can try now. So judge if you want. Right now I don't care. Im here because for the first time in 5 years I am here. Im here for me , my daughter my husband and thats Why i am here. Medication and therapy have given me the strength to reach out and grasp this day meetings and all. I never left the church. I do feel it abandoned me. The gospel no. But when last did you call to see why someone you are hall friends with at church isn't there did you pick up a phone or call to see why. Its lonely on this side especially when its not my choice to be away.
Why don't you call them,? Part of my anxiety is a paralyzing fear of phone
calls.
No judgement here just plain old fashioned loneliness.
